boulders
rolled
into the
yard
a pair of dice
Frank climbed the ladder
to find a five
and a two
he never saw the hand that threw them
swinging down to swoop them up
while Mother slept
Frank took her eyes
she told him never to do that
he saw the devil in every room
twirling his asshole
cooking small rodents
masturbating in Father's E-Z chair
all this through Mother's eyes
Frank was shaking
putting them back in her head
next morning
she marched into his room shrieking
"ONE OF MY EYES IS UPSIDE DOWN!"
Frank's diary
returned
by mail
when he'd
lost it on
a bus
"Dear Boy come to Jesus"
penciled in the margin
for 224 pages
"I'm here for the show" the man said
looking under Frank's shirt for the door
"I'm no theater" Frank said
a line formed
must he admit them all?
many had umbrellas
a blind woman
waited with
her dog
"it's gonna be a great show" someone said
"but when's he gonna let us in?"
Frank's tears began to fall
someone ripped his doors open
they filled him for an hour
Frank was embarrassed in the bar
when his skin began to smoke
"hey man!" someone yelled
"do you need the fire department?"
everybody laughed
"no" he said with
a nervous smile waving
his arm to
clear the smoke
which only made it worse
"it will pass" he said
"it's just the
condition
of my soul
it will pass"
Frank ate clear around
the sleeping worm
of the apple
"any life saved in this place
is magic" Frank said
"it's life coming back to you"
Copyright © 2003 CAConrad
CAConrad lives and writes in Philadelphia with The Philly Sound poets. His book FRANK is forthcoming from The Jargon Society, while advancedELVIScourse is forthcoming from Buck Downs Books, and DEVIANT PROPULSION is forthcoming from Soft Skull Press. He curates the project 9for9, edits BANJO: Poets Talking, and co-edits FREQUENCY Audio Journal with Magdalena Zurawski. His previous publications in Strange Horizons can be found in our Archive. To contact him, email CAConrad13@aol.com.