Size / / /

Between my fourth and fifth ribs is a fistula, an opening,

Fabergé Easter egg window into my heart. Just a moment;

I'll unbutton my shirt . . . . Come closer, and you can peek

into a small sunlit garden surrounded by a clipped hedge,

an intimate landscape with mossy, indistinct ruins

sinking into the curves of undulating lawn. I can't see it,

myself; the mirror is never at quite the right angle.

But my friends and my cardiologist tell me all about it.

They say it is always sunny in there, although there are

clouds on the horizon. Occasionally someone will claim

to see mountains in the distance, and once a child said

he saw the turrets of a tiny city beyond the faraway hills.

No viewer has ever seen a single human or animal

in my heart, not even an insect, although I am told that

there are many flowers, whose faint, delectable perfume

is a rare emanation which I may only be imagining.

The shadows shift, but the phenomenon we call sun

is always behind the onlooker, and never sets. Sometimes

a longer, more angular shadow looms across the grass.

Whatever casts that dark movement remains invisible.




F.J. Bergmann frequents Wisconsin and fibitz.com and intends to go down in history as the inventor of Time Pockets. She is the author of Constellation of the Dragonfly, Aqua Regia (Parallel Press, 2007), and Sauce Robert (Pavement Saw Press, 2003). Her work has appeared in Asimov's, Mythic Delirium, Niteblade, Weird Tales, and literary journals that should have known better. She is the poetry editor of Mobius: The Journal of Social Change. You can see more of her work in our archives.
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31 Mar 2025

We are delighted to present to you our second special issue of the year. This one is devoted to ageing and SFF, a theme that is ever-present (including in its absence) in the genre.
Gladys was approaching her first heat when she shed her fur and lost her tail. The transformation was unintentional, and unwanted. When she awoke in her new form, smelling of skin and sweat, she wailed for her pack in a voice that scraped her throat raw.
does the comb understand the vocabulary of hair. Or the not-so-close-pixels of desires even unjoined shape up to become a boat
The birds have flown long ago. But the body, the body is like this: it has swallowed the smaller moon and now it wants to keep it.
now, be-barked / I am finally enough
how you gazed on our red land beside me / then how you traveled it, your eyes gone silver
Here, I examine the roles of the crones of the Expanse space in Persepolis Rising, Tiamat’s Wrath, and Leviathan Falls as leaders and combatants in a fight for freedom that is always to some extent mediated by their reduced physical and mental capacity as older people. I consider how the Expanse foregrounds the value of their long lives and experience as they configure the resistance for their own and future generations’ freedom, as well as their mentorship of younger generations whose inexperience often puts the whole mission in danger.
In the second audio episode of Writing While Disabled, hosts Kristy Anne Cox and Kate Johnston welcome Farah Mendlesohn, acclaimed SFF scholar and conrunner, to talk all things hearing, dyslexia, and more ADHD adjustments, as well as what fandom could and should be doing better for accessibility at conventions, for both volunteers and attendees.
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