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It is yours, after all
in so far as any creature
owns another.

If they would make you
rip its talons from your shoulder,
pull its roots from your spine,
turn away and leave it crying
on the doorstep,
so they may sit you down, lock the door,
position you chiaroscuro
to hide the scabs the scars the holes
and pay you compliments on the light
that does not reach your eyes—
yes, they call it your good side

if the faded bloodstains on the sofa
are never mentioned, nor the wailing
from under the floorboards, if no one asks
where you were, before—this, yes,
is polite conversation—and you
must smile and nod, careful your head
does not fall off where they had it severed:

Walk away. Roll. Crawl.
Hold your head up. Hold this thing
that lives in your bones
and put it to bed in your organs,
fascia-tucked tenderly,
rock yourself, you two
with your one life, grown
in this body of aches and time.



Toby MacNutt is an author, dancer, and knitter living in rural Vermont. Their work in all media draws on their experience as a nonbinary trans, queer, disabled, and neurodivergent person. Toby's poetry and prose has been published in various magazines and in their collection If Not Skin. Find out more at www.tobymacnutt.com.
Current Issue
31 Mar 2025

We are delighted to present to you our second special issue of the year. This one is devoted to ageing and SFF, a theme that is ever-present (including in its absence) in the genre.
Gladys was approaching her first heat when she shed her fur and lost her tail. The transformation was unintentional, and unwanted. When she awoke in her new form, smelling of skin and sweat, she wailed for her pack in a voice that scraped her throat raw.
does the comb understand the vocabulary of hair. Or the not-so-close-pixels of desires even unjoined shape up to become a boat
The birds have flown long ago. But the body, the body is like this: it has swallowed the smaller moon and now it wants to keep it.
now, be-barked / I am finally enough
how you gazed on our red land beside me / then how you traveled it, your eyes gone silver
Here, I examine the roles of the crones of the Expanse space in Persepolis Rising, Tiamat’s Wrath, and Leviathan Falls as leaders and combatants in a fight for freedom that is always to some extent mediated by their reduced physical and mental capacity as older people. I consider how the Expanse foregrounds the value of their long lives and experience as they configure the resistance for their own and future generations’ freedom, as well as their mentorship of younger generations whose inexperience often puts the whole mission in danger.
In the second audio episode of Writing While Disabled, hosts Kristy Anne Cox and Kate Johnston welcome Farah Mendlesohn, acclaimed SFF scholar and conrunner, to talk all things hearing, dyslexia, and more ADHD adjustments, as well as what fandom could and should be doing better for accessibility at conventions, for both volunteers and attendees.
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