We tunnel out of creases in the green-blue sky
toward sparkling treetops
on the curve of plantlit earth.
We hum across the photoverdant vineyards—
rose and hemlock, root-rich dirt
and birch, and leaf of pine.
Like green light burning in the stars—
We hum and hover treetop-high.
And then a glare of lights appears
And strobes along behind the pines—
Hollow, pale lights. Nonphotosynthesizable
light. In motion. On a dead black strip.
We tunnel to the hillside, where the light
is lumbering, propelled by
deep voltaic rage—
We make our slow descent—
we de-electrify its psyche,
which is like a lightning-thicket—
Its warlike loneliness bites us—
The box stalls willingly. Its lights go dark.
—All quiet on the blacktop strip.
The jackpines laugh, and we anesthetize
the power source and lift it
gently to ourself.
We calm its fear. We strip away its coverings.
We numb it. Scan. We scrape
and soothe. We drill, extract,
replace, insert and gouge. We warn:
Neglect of inner power
wrecks the outer life;
neglect of outer life will wreck
the inner power. We look
like devils to this bonsai mind.
We tag, reclothe and then return the lonely power
to its box.—We overset the tangle
with a dream of blue-green light,
And while electric rage regenerates
and lights the jackpines
shifting in the verdant, starlit breeze—
We tunnel out for home to try to learn
how psychic storms survive to power flesh
and consciousness boils from photosynthesis,
before the feeble body of our race winks out.
A man may see how the world goes with no eyes.
Look with thine ears.
The red glow of the clock radio.
The bluish haze of streetlights
in the window. Is it? Wait—
a dream, a dream. My kingdom for a dream.
A coolness on my ankle, like a hoof.
Gently rising out of bed, and motion,
like an incubus exhaling on a breeze.
Teardrop eyes like giant walnuts
stare from whitish, wrinkled figs
detached from stalks. I'm looking up.
Glassy blackish eyes,
they're pinning me. I try to buck.
They stole my clothes again.
I’m on the table face up, again.
Again, a probe. Again
a twisting, deep and cold
and rigid, bruising.
Calm, say walnut eyes.
Small discomforts, say the deep opaquenesses
that stare like shrunken moons from nothing
into nothing. Here, me, naked,
nothing, animal with fear.
Standing in a boxlike room.
I see my feet. Yellow-blue light, like fog.
Naked hairless calves, attached to the feet.
Fig heads float to me with a shirt.
My left hand finds a sleeve, slides in.
My thumb slips through the silklike cloth.
The shirt hangs like a halter
on my shoulder. A shoulder bare.
I can't think what to do.
I see my breasts, they ache.
A bent hand gently lifts another sleeve.
My right hand slides along the silklike tunnel.
No shadows in the gauzy light.
A bench along a wall
where I could rest. I take a step.
Foot slaps floor.
Bone-gaunt giant digits
guide me to the center of the stall.
The silklike shirt is still unbuttoned.
Breasts are arching there, I see them
in the distance, aching hills.
Thighs cold. Legs cold, skin white.
Brown pubic puckerbrush.
All calm, say glassy eyes.
Small discomforts, say the blacknesses.
I think I'm screaming.
Bone-bent fingers press my arm
with nickel coolness, like the stable boy
who soothes the frightened mare.
Whose semen did you run up into me,
and mix with what? I think to scream,
but voices interrupt with voiceless cool.
All calm. The moonblack eyes.
The morning sun crystallizes
on the hardwood floor beside the bed.
Clock red digits slow to focus.
Morning misery. I'm late.
My eyes feel sore and pink.
My muscles ache. All night
I ran in dreams from Cossacks
small enough to crush
between your thighs.
I call my boyfriend.
“Now I think I'm pregnant.”
His silence says it all.
Let it be a dream, a dream,
The lather of an overactive id.
Let it not be true.
Sweet heaven, let it be unreal